Wednesday, August 29, 2012

Oh, the Insanity!

It is said that there is a fine line between insanity and genius. I wonder how one can tell which one they are. I guess if one isn't deemed a genius in the first place then perhaps one can consider them self insane. I guess I know I'm not a genius but I don't consider myself insane either. So how fine o9f a line is it?

So is sanity based on what decisions one makes or the paths they choose in life? Wow, that would probably make 90% of us insane...wouldn't you think? I mean come on...whom among us has not ever made a choice or decision or even had a thought that someone must have thought, "What were they thinking?" Oh, hey, my Mom probably thought that every day when I was a kid...and she asked me that on several occasions. I know that's probably hard to imagine...and you don't even know me, right?

Man I digress allot - maybe that makes me insane...or just clever?

I'm gay - if you've read my other posts and haven't picked up on that quite yet, then I'll save you a bit of guess-work. However, feel free to read or reread my other posts. But I digress...  So why am I telling you this? Because sometimes people think this is a choice. WHO in their right mind would choose to be gay? We're scorned, sometimes beaten or spit on, and don't even have the same rights as "straight" people that aren't married, but living together!

It's okay. At least I'm not a politician. I mean really. That is a choice. WHO in their right mind would choose to be a politician? These people have to be insane. Talk about scorned and hated; and they drive us insane as well. I have such a hard time figuring out who's telling the truth. I have not registered for either party. Why? Because, I want part of this guy's philosophy and that guy's abilities...maybe then we can have the perfect candidate.

The bad part is - we have to make a choice between the two. For some that's an easy decision. They are one party or the other - die-hard, true-blue, through-and-through. I wonder how many secretly don't like their candidate but don't want to be scorned by their loved ones or friends. For others, like me, we have to pick the lesser of the two weasels. That in itself is enough to make one go insane or "looney-toons".

Everybody makes choices in their lifetime. I hold to the thought that the majority of the people try to make good decisions for themselves and their families. I am sure that there are times that "It seemed a good idea at the time" gets spoken. Perhaps research should be done on how often each age group says that.

And here's example of a choice in some one's life that did seem like a good idea at the time: getting a PhD. No really. I obviously know this first hand. I can't tell you how many times I've questioned why I'm doing this to myself. I think this was all in a period of the past three months and I've been enrolled in this program for four years now. It's the dissertation. I'm sure of that. It's a "project" that I wouldn't sic on my worst enemy...wait...maybe we should ask the Taliban to write a thesis or dissertation about why they are motivated to do what they do and perhaps by the time they finish, they'll be just a bit less motivated. It could happen! Okay, not likely, but one can dream can't they?

So am I insane or genius? I don't know either. Don't ask those that I work for or with. I already know what they'll say. But perhaps when I'm done with my studies and the powers-to-be at Walden University say "Yea verily, you art thou a Doctor of Philosophy" I'll look back and say, "That wasn't so bad". Yeah...that's not gonna happen. So let's you and I make a pact that we try to make the best choices we can with the information we have and never use the phrase, "It seemed like a good idea at the time."

We can't be convicted for living our lives the best we can and making the best choices we can. We can only plead innocent by reason of insanity or genius.

...and a PhD means...I'm on my way to being an insane genius...?